on being a bum

the party of the year apparently is going on right now... i've been called by 6 different people asking why i'm not there... the answer is simple : i feel like being a bum and minding my own business, and i would really appreciate if people just let me do so without harassing me any more about it.

kinda like leigh, colleen, and i live together now -- jared, mike, scott, john, sam, and eric are in one house now too... they've been planning their labor day barbeque for quite some time... when leigh showed up mid afternoon and they asked where i was and she said i planned on staying put where i was, they promptly all took turns calling/IMing me and trying to convince me otherwise. the only one who i think actually heard what i was saying was jared... he said if i wanted to be antisocial i could come over, get a share of the free food, and take a nap in his bed, just so i'd be there, and when i said "don't take it personally, but i'm happy in my own room with a good book right now", he accepted that, with an "if you change your mind, we'll be over here and glad to see you" and let me go, instead of continuing to pester. at least there's one person who listens over there :-P

leigh called an hour ago... apparently they'd had beer pong out and running since like 4pm, and she had never seen or heard of anything like it. i've played before... with margarita mix/cheap tequila too... but seriously, if they've been drinking for hours already, and i'm tired, have a headache, and wouldn't want to be there long, it's not worth going over and being sober and grumpy just for the free food

so here i am.

i've been reading math all afternoon for the first time in weeks... i read a whole chapter in my combinatorics book, finally giving up on trying to do the exercises along the way after i got stuck on the first one for like and hour and a half... i can understand the examples they work out, i just can't solve the open ended stuff... i did solve all the suggested problems the prof gave on friday though, so i suppose that's good... he was a hard prof last year and i had an impossible time with his graph theory homework, so we'll see how this goes

i don't know what i want to do with my life... mathematically at least... i came in thinking i wanted to specialize in algebra or combinatorics... i know even more than a year ago that analysis is not an option for me, however algebra conceptually left me in the dust (because of easy grading professors who didn't make us learn the material) and graph theory left me in the dust (on account of a prof. that goes way faster than my mind can keep up)... i'm discouraged all around, and tired of stuff... but then again there's nothing non-math that i can think of being more excited about doing besides not working and that's not an option... so maybe i'm just in a blah mood all around to work through and then things will be better?... let's hope so.

next on the agenda? dinner and reading my new topology book.

aren't you jealous?

later dudes.