remembering

a year ago tonight is the last time i talked to my friend nicole before she was unexpectedly killed in a car wreck september 5, 2003.

conversation excerpt:
nicole: wow, la, i'm actually kind of jealous -- you sound so much more settled and at home in jersey after a week than i feel in tampa after over a month!
me: i'm sorry... :-( it sounds like you have a great school though; if you keep looking, you just gotta find people our age eventually, right? God's got this one figured out, it's just hard to wait to see things turn out.
nicole: yeah, i hope so, i guess i just have to keep being patient and know God's timing is the best timing.
me: yeah, like it or not, understand it or not

those lines have haunted me for the past year -- one would hope they'd have gotten a hair easier to take hold of -- "God's time is the best time, like it or not, understand it or not" -- why is timing still such a difficult thing to handle?

later dudes.