breathing is all it takes to be a miracle

it's been a decent afternoon....

after pizza seminar, i read for awhile (started in on hitchikers guide again), then when leigh came home we decided to go to a diner for dinner. jersey diner specials -- oh man! for one price you get a nice huge entree, salad bar, bowl of soup, and dessert, and they give you so much it's basically two meals because you take half of it home with you... it was a party.

afterwards, when we got home, colleen was back too, and they agreed to watch "garden state" with me. i had seen it twice in theaters and bought the dvd earlier this week in a buy 2 get 1 free sale at blockbuster.

as for me, i remembered again why i loved the movie so much last fall. i saw it with eric and scott just a week or two after roommate's mom's funeral, and again a little after that when my friend jessica came to visit. after all the emotion that went along with the summer, that movie especially hit a chord timing wise then and stuck with me. (if you've not seen it, the 1st scene of the movie is the main character waking up to a phone call his mom has died and he goes home for the funeral, where the whole movie takes place (in his hometown) in the week following the funeral).

i love(d) the movie because it's all about real life and real people and about being honest about feelings and about yourself. i also loved some of the imagery and the soundtrack was spectacular.

leigh and colleen on the other hand, saw the movie for the first time. i feel a little bad because i probably could have predicted their reactions but i still suggested they see it anyhow. without matching names to comments....
one roommate said, "i liked some of the ideas it conveyed, i just didn't overall enjoy the way it was put together and all the stuff they went through to convey them... it was ok"
said the other roommate, "i guess i would have been happier if i hadn't seen it. i don't like movies about people with screwed up lives, i'm happier in my bubble world when it comes to movies"

doht.

this is completely fair of them, they each see the world much differently than me. while i enjoy warm and fuzzy happy movies aplenty, for some reason dramas that are about real people with real screwed up lives strike a chord with me and i really like them. after all, we're all screwed up to varying degrees and i have my share of stories in that vein as well.... garden state was well done in this category (of conveying real, true, screwed up life) and i loved the conclusions it drew and the process the characters go through to get there.

life is about feeling, even if it's pain. there's not something better (in this world) to be waiting on, *this* is the time we've got.

i sat put and watched bloopers and deleted scenes tonight too after colleen and leigh went back to their rooms... the title is a quote from one of the deleted scenes, all in the same vein as before, but commented well... i need to replay it and get the exact quote.

the dude who lives in the arc in the quarry said something along the lines of "this is life, even if i'm never famous i'm ok, because i have a family who loves me and i'm doing stuff i love"
zach braff replied with something along the lines of "yeah, i've been looking for a philosophy like that,... i guess for too long i've assumed that if i don't become someone famous or discover something big i'm a waste of energy and the force that created all this will be disappointed with me"
the dude who lives in the arc replied "i think it's more along the lines of the force who created all this would want you to realize that breathing is all it takes to be a mircle... remember THAT"

in my mind, it was quality.

after polluting my roommates minds with an R-rated movie they didn't like, (oops), i'm off to read some more.

night y'all.